العقيدة الابراهيمية

العقيدة الابراهيمية هي اقيدة بالله اللذي معبود و مأمون ابراهيم . من هذا ابراهيم؟ هذا هو  رسول اللذي فكر الفكرة التوحد الله. و هذا الاعتقاد اصبح الاساس الايمان بالاديان اليهودية, المسيحية و الاسلامية. لكن, لماذا من عقيدة واحدة يأتين ثلاثة اديان؟

السعادة

ما السعادة؟ يقول انسان "نريد سعادة في حياتنا في الدنيا و في الاخرة, فإن الانسان يحب السعادة." كل انسان يريد السعادة. لماذا يريدونها , ولو هذه الفكرة, يعني, العقيدة بالوجود السعادة ليست صحيحة , ليست هي الحقيقة ؟ هذه العقيدة وهْمة فانية و كذبة كبيرة. ولكن لا يفهمون انسان هذا الحقيقة, لانّ هذه الحقيقة قبيحة و مؤلمة . يعيش الانسان في الكون من امرالله (هذا هو الله ربنا, و ليس الّا هو الرب الخاص في الاسلام ) , يعني , نعيش من ارادة الله و من قدرته, حتى موتنا. ثم لو الدين الاسلام حقيقي او صحيح , سيذهب كل انسان الى الجنة او الى الجحيم. لانّ يكون ذلك السبب , ليس عندنا الحرية, و ليست الوجود السعادة حقيقية, لانّ تخرج السعادة من الحرية, ولكن لسن الفكر حقيقية.ـ

Sérieusement. c'est une langue difficile. Entah betul entah tidak tatabahasanya. 

Ramalan Cuaca Politik

-I don't know exactly, but there is always something that is saying to me that Malaysia, as a unified country, cannot stay united. And it feels real, given the fact that the Islamisation that has taken place involves only the Muslim community, and draws minimal participation from the non-Muslim citizen~the minority in their own country. The Islamisation of Malaysian education affects only Muslim students; and these students, with their Islamised minds, think differently, live differently, dream differently from the non-Muslim students, who despite their same age, has different thoughts, ways of living and dreams for the Malaysian future.

-Can these differences be reconciled? It is very hard to say, given the fact that the non-Muslims are mostly Chinese and Indian in ethnicity~and thus, to some extent this divide is not only a religious divide, but also a racial divide, and racial divide is hard to bridge; different cultures, facial attributes and languages emphasize the differences on a daily basis.

-How about the native Borneans, Dayaks, Kadazans, Melanaus and Bajaus? Bajaus tend to embrace Islamisation and Malay-fication, due to their less-than-desirable, purportedly recent, Filipino origin; Melanaus are also welcoming of these two changes, albeit with less enthusiasm, given the religious trinity of Islam-Christianity-Likou that still shapes the Melanau identity, making them, to some extent, more secular, together with their enthusiastic Melanau linguistic conservatism, Melanau language being a symbol of their pure heritage of the land of Sarawak, them being no Malay which is considered, to some extent, a foreign entity. On the other hand, Christianized Dayaks and Kadazans are less enthusiastic about Islamisation and Malay-fication; these are viewed as a silent, subversive, indirect attack on their identity, and of course they are not complaining: the Malays have always been a superior race culturally and politically, with their Srivijaya-Malacca legacy very much alive in the present-day Malaysia, and they are also more numerous, which makes the Malays more dangerous.

-This Malay-Islamisation is going to be a key factor in the shaping of Malaysian society. That's all, I am not jumping to any radical conclusion or suggestion.

يا الهي

,يا الهي
:اسألك هذا السؤال
,لأن رأيت الدنيا
,والله تعالى
:لا أفهم إرادتك
ماذا كتبت في اللوح المحفوظ؟
,و ماذا تريد من كل شيء
,و من كل نفس
و مني؟
,لأنك ربي و رب العرش العظيم
اسألك يا لطيف, ما السبب وما المعنى؟
,لأن قلت في الكتاب الكريم
",إقرأ بسم ربك اللذي خلق"
أن قرأت و فكرت
.ولكن لا أفهم إرادتك, يا الهي

W4lr6s's Happy Dreams

Where have all my happy dreams gone? I thought that by now, now that I am 22, I would be in a committed relationship with a short yet lively, smart, musical, cute girl , living a great life as a youth who discovers the world as a bright place full with love and joy, excelling in my studies and having a great self-esteem, and also an able leader for people of my age, living up to the expectations they have of a bright Melanau boy, living my musical dream by being in an alternative rock band which is open and eager for musical experimentation, openly espousing liberal ideas that would change and shock the nation of its racist slumber, and despite all that glory, still remains a humble, shy boy who remains loyal to his old, close friends and hopelessly in love with his girl, who also loves him back for his gentleness, kindness and selflessness-

-Wake up W4lr6s! You're living in a socially conservative society where your dreams go to die!

Little Girl, Don't Cry

-This world is an awful place to live in. It is, on one level, a reflection of hell: Violence, disasters, injustice, depression, regret, oppression, lack of freedom, limitations-all are familiar symptoms of the malaise called life, which can be viewed in a rather pessimistic (one might even say nihilistic) way of viewing this world, as a sexually-transmitted disease, of which the prognosis is certain death.

-We are both having this same disease, the disease called life. Yet we suffer it in a different way. I suffer from lack of confidence in myself; you suffer from lack of trust in people most dearly to you. I don't trust in myself, hence I want to disappear all the time-this might as well be what that insane Jew by the name of Sigmund Freud called by the name of 'death desire', a desire to return back to being something that has no existence, a non-existing being, which goes by no name, has no corporeal or abstract existing elements in it-hence it is ultimately beyond grasp, very much like God Himself, except that God is 1 and the non-existent is 0.

But you on the other hand, want to have a value. You seek that value called existence, you want to grasp it, you want to be the One. And yes, you are the One, for that desire manifests itself, actualizes itself in the most beautiful way imaginable-the word 'imaginable' here does not even portray your beauty, your essence in a way that justifies your existence. And yet you find it perplexing that this existence, this value that you seek, ultimately brings pain to you, as you found yourself to be surrounded by the Others, the Others that would not help you make sense of what you are, who you want to be, and what you can be.

-This perplexity in turn, generates the death desire in you: yet returning back to being a non-existent being scares you; and that is why we both met each other, to seek solace in one another, in a brother-sisterhood of two Existences, you finding solace in my embracing of 0 and me finding wonder in your embracing of 1.

-I know that you won't read this, and even if you do, you won't understand this bull-crap full with Freud-mimicking utterances: but it's fine by me, as I am 0 and you are 1-we just don't really belong, for 1 multiplied by 0 equals 0: but maybe I am wrong, maybe we are both One, for we are both Existences-who knows but God, the One, the Existent.

Nisfu Syaaban, Anger and Old S**t

-Arafat might have been assassinated.

-What a great news, really made my day! After 8 years since Arafat died, only now people come forward and say such things? That's really great, it is really a great day for both the Palestinian and Israeli folks! Now we can expect more drama again soon-after all it's Ramadhan soon, so this will provide us with real entertainment after iftar and tarawih, by watching the news on internet, and this drama might as well distract pious, sexually active, long-bearded men, from both sides of the war, from their wives (or perhaps...we should never know!) by catering to their secret fetish-so secret that they themselves don't realize it- of bloody scenes! And we might as well drag as many people possible into the whole sitcom-the Turks and the Egyptians are more than happy to rehearse their new found role in the drama, and I am sure United States will reprise their role with more glee this time, while European, Latin American, and Muslim nations (we can forget about the godforsaken Asians, as per use) will be in their usual seats, reprising their roles with more or less changes in this sequel to the old drama, and know what? Let's make the drama a religious one too, invoke the name of God of Abraham during the whole season-Hallelujah for the One True God, Alhamdulillah for the One True Religion, that is strangely reliant on the Holy Land like a drug addict!